Thursday, November 4, 2010

Chapter 2


Marcus was being carried like a pig being prepared for a roast. The only thing missing was an apple, but instead it was replaced by a rope. His jaw was pried open and his hands bound behind his back, tied to a large post. His face was not far from the ground as they carried him. Each time the horses climbed up the ridge toward the mainland his faced would scratch alone the dirt and stone.
            Marcus studied his captors and their demeanor as they climbed the steep ridge. Their faces were stern and stoic, fear from their commander kept them from deviating from the strict form he demanded from them. Marcus knew what it was like to have an overbearing weight of uniformity and unvarying consistency from when the village elders taught him how to hunt.
“One must never talk louder than trees”, Marcus thought. That was a basic rule. If you deviated from it, you would be punished by not eating. But that was only because there would be nothing to eat. As Marcus swayed between the horses, he recalled the obedient nature that both he and his captors shared. Before Marcus was blessed with being a village hunter, he endured a long test of becoming skilled and experienced. Before he was ten, Gregory, an elder hunter, gave him his first bow. The smooth polished wood, the slight tension when he pulled it back, and the violent snap when he released the string, were once so beautiful but have now become second nature. He had taken for granted the splendor of the bow. Humans have a habit for loving the novel, and ignoring the given.
Marcus was not native to the village. He came from Frederickton, a larger village just outside the Kingdom Gates. The people there were white and all spoke a dialect of English. They were a privileged township because they were able to have books. Reading was strictly forbidden in the Kingdom’s realm. Yet in Frederickton they were able to read books that the King allowed. Nobody knew who the King was or what he looked like, usually that information stayed within the iron gates. But the towns did know when it was a forgiving king or a ruthless king because of the privileges or restrictions that would be placed open them. One could only plead that they were born in an era of a forgiving king, but Marcus was not that fortunate.
Marcus was just seven years old when he was banished from Frederickton. His father whom he barely knew had killed a king’s village Vanguard. Vanguard’s were more like wardens than representatives of the villages. The Vanguard had raped Marcus’ mother while the men were tending the mines for the month. His wife wept and told him that the Vanguard had raped her, Marcus’ father stormed toward the Vanguard who was observing the villagers in the village courtyard. His father rampaged toward the Vanguard, screaming a warrior’s battle cry. His father tackled him and the two tumbled to the ground. His father was large and strong. His shoulders were broad and his chest was burly, the Vanguard was much weaker than him. With his knee on his chest his father beat him with a large rock. Before the other officers could intervene and pull Marcus’ father off of the Vanguard, his father took the Vanguard’s gun out of his holster and shot him in the forehead. No one in the village had ever heard the sound of a firearm before. Many of the villagers came running out of their homes a saw the blood splatter on the ground and the Vanguard lying motionless. The officers came running toward the Vanguard and drew their weapons, aiming them at Marcus’ father. Their red dots looked like scattering insects on his father’s chest. Before they could shoot him, Marcus’ father put the gun up to his chin and shot himself, the blood squirting out of his head like a geyser. His mother tried to run to him, just to hold him one last time, but the officers grabbed her and threw her to the ground and bound her. As his motionless body lay on the ground, the officers grabbed the body of the Vanguard and wrapped it in a white cloth. Then they tied the dead body of Marcus’ father and tied it to the flagpole in the center of the courtyard, raising him up like a flag, and then each had their turn with target practice. An officer had taken Marcus and forced him to watch his father be mercilessly torn by the inertia of their bullets. Marcus did not cry, he watched the faces of all the officers. They were distraught. With vengeance they each unloaded a clip of ammunition into Marcus’ father. That was the last time Marcus saw either of his parents. His mother was executed in the Kingdom’s Court for conspiracy to harm a King’s agent. All acts are considered hereditary. Whether or not a family lineage survives depends on the King’s ruling. Many families have disappeared or been executed, usually in the presence of other villages to make examples. Many times, during ages of forgiving Kings, parents are executed and the orphans banished to remote villages far away from the Kingdom gates. Or they are left somewhere in the wilderness, either to survive or be consumed.  Marcus was banished to the low lying village by at the edge of the sea where most convicts and the “social tribulations” live, Sashaport.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Writing Schedule

When I can write:
(all PM)
Monday - 4:30-7:00
Tuesday: 12:00-3:00
Wednesday: 4:30-7:00
Thursday: 12:00-3:00
Friday- No free time.
Saturday: 11am-3:00
Sunday:*Maybe 4:30-8:00

I hereby solemnly swear to adhere to my schedule rigorously, exceptions not included.

Novella draft


Chapter 1: And All the King’s Men

            The world turned white. The flash washed over the landscape and blanketed the soil with a bright heat. The sound of the incineration of steal, timber, and flesh radiated for a brief second before the gentle silence exploded through the room like an unwelcome guest. The beauty of the mushroom cloud was as gruesome of the melted flesh of its victims, falling off the bones like lamb meat. The trees were uprooted and thrown like titans tossing javelins. I was the rat underground, hiding. That’s where I was when the world changed. Where were you? Where are you?
            Holding his bow, Marcus crouches through the dry marsh grass. The soil is wet and rich and during the rainy season the grass grows so long that it covers even the tallest of men. The pack of deer has been feeding around his village for the past three days but none of the hunters have been able to track them until now. Off in the distance Marcus spots a lone deer. It is a young buck, not yet full grown, not yet able to live on his own. He knows that the mother is near by and if he’s lucky there will be more. He quietly scampers back to his makeshift canoe and paddles through the marshland to a closer location.
            He paddles through the maze of interconnected marshland waters and comes to an isthmus. Crouching like a sly predator he raises his head above the brush to spot the lone deer. There a four now. The largest an old buck, strong and bold, and he is looking over the young calf as it grazes in the bushes. Marcus grabs an arrow from his pack and places it gently on the nocking point. Getting onto one knee he lines up his trajectory through the sight window. As he slowly exhales, he releases. The arrow sails through the slight breeze and hits the deer slightly above its windpipe. The buck jumps and the other deer scatter and gallop away from Marcus. Marcus jumps into his canoe and paddles toward the land of his prey. The trail of blood leads up a well marked path that many hunters had been tracking for a long while. He sees the old buck lying down in the bushes, still alive, but only slightly. Marcus grabs his knife and puts it up to the neck of the deer.  “Be plentiful, for my people. The King shall not eat your flesh”, he recites, the blood spills onto the ground and Marcus carries the carcass to his canoe.
            By the time Marcus had arrived back to the village, the sun had already begun to set. The other hunters had all arrived back to the village a few hours ago. A large figured was standing at the docking point at the edge of the river.
“I see that you had success, friend.” said Niambe. “Looks like we’re going to have a great feast.”  Niambe was a well known hunter around the village. He was tall and well built. His sable skin did not resemble the kindness of his heart.
“How did the other hunters do?” asked Marcus.
“Some had success. Some did not. It is what it always has been, the veterans must be the most reliable, because the young cannot be counted upon.” Niambe laughed, and Marcus gave a sympathetic smile. Niambe helped Marcus carry his catch out of the canoe and into the village.
            The sound of the drums echoed in the distance, the feast had already begun. When Marcus arrived back at the village the sky was dark, but the village was bright with the fevering red glow of the bon-fire. Many of the villagers were dancing in circles around the fire while the masked drummers beat sticks upon the leather drum skins. When the villagers saw Marcus carrying the deer around his neck, they greeted him with cheers and many congratulated him with a slap on the back or a kiss on the cheek.
            Marcus brought the deer to the chieftain, Zion. Zion was a thin, old man. No one knew his real age, but he was certainly the eldest. He sat in a chair made of driftwood and reeds under a roof of mud and straw.  He was fair skinned and his face was wrinkled. His rustled hair flowed down his back and was knotted at its end. The only clothing he wore was a long fur coat that was tied with a rope around his waist, underneath was skin. Zion’s eyes could pierce human flesh like a thrusted spear. Marcus placed the deer at his feet and Marcus went to his knees and bowed his head. Zion examined the deer, putting his finger into the hole that arrow formed. Zion placed his hand on Marcus’ head.
            “Did you bless this creature?” Zion asked.
            “I did, chieftain”, obediently replying Marcus.
            “Then it is ready. Juveniles, take this creature and prepare it for the feast.” Three young men pick up the deer and carry it out of their presence.
            “Marcus, I trust that you did not venture into Kingdom Grounds when you were hunting?” asked Zion.
            “I did, chieftain. But it was only because I knew the deer were there and I did not know if the other hunters would be successful”, pleaded Marcus.
            “No.” Zion yelled slamming his fist onto the armrest, “You mustn’t ever go there. If they catch you, you will be killed by the king’s men! If you disobey again I will be forced to punish you.”
            “May I speak freely, forgiving chieftain”, said Marcus.
            “You may.” said Zion, slowly relaxing into his wooden chair.
            Getting to his feet, “The imperialists have invaded our land. They should make concessions to us. But, since they have not, I will continue to hunt on my land. I will not kill any creatures beyond the iron gates, but so long as my people need food, I will hunt on my land” argued Marcus.
            “Young hunter”, getting out of his chair and putting his hand on his shoulder, “I know your fever. Since the invaders of occupied these lands we have been like fish in a net. But we must live. We are small in numbers, but we are growing. But you, as well as I, know that we are a fragile village. We cannot afford to lose anyone, especially our strongest hunter. You must obey me, for the sake of the village.”
            Marcus knew he was right, he could not avoid the truth.
            “I apologize for my tone, chieftain.” Said Marcus.
            “Marcus, you need not to apologize…”.
            Suddenly there is a large yell from the villagers. Niambe came running toward Marcus with a bow in his hand.
            “Zion, the imperialists have entered through the gates and wish to speak to you”, said Niambe, nearly out of breath.
            “Tell them if they wish to speak to me, they can do so, but they must leave their weapons at the gates.” Said Zion sternly.
            Niambe ran off into the darkness. Marcus ran after Niambe to aid him in his confrontation. As he ran, Marcus noticed that the drummers were still playing, although no one was dancing. The imperialists appeared to be large, although it was difficult to assume because they wore so much armor. The Colonel and his five commanders were riding on their horses, the rest of them were on foot. They wore white helmets and metal plated chest armor. It was heavy and thick, no spear could pierce their plates. Their legs were just as covered, and their boots were polished black and had a steel toe. They had better weapons than the villagers, they had firearms. The Colonel removed his helmet. His hair was short but unkempt. Marcus looked down the short path toward the gates of the village. He saw Niambe give the message from Zion. The Colonel erupted into a hysterical laugher, his men followed his lead.
“Please, you termite, do not agitate me, bring me to your commander.” , demanded the Colonel.
“You can’t enter our village with your weapons”, exclaimed Niambe.
“Well we’re not going to leave our weapons with you, you may shoot yourself, and we can’t have that happen now can we”, mocked the Colonel. “I’ll make a deal with you, young villager. If you allow us to keep our weapons, your village will not have to work the mines when it becomes your turn. Does that sound good to you?”
Gritting his teeth, Niambe says softly, “Leave your weapons, or leave our village.”
“We shall do neither. We’re here to talk to your commander. Apparently someone was spotted killing one of the king’s deer without permission. We are here to detain this person and try them in the Kingdom’s Court”, said the Colonel calmly.
Niambe looked down the path and saw Marcus standing with his bow in his hands.
“Well gentlemen, I do believe we have found our convict. Officers, detain him!”
The officers charged down the path at Marcus, knocking Niambe to the ground and aiming their guns down the path. Marcus did not struggle. He gave up easily because he knew he would be killed if he had taken one step backwards. The officers dismounted and kicked him to the ground.
“Well, well, well. We meet again Marcus”, ridiculed one of the officers. Marcus had been cut on his face from the kick. Blood was pouring from his forehead down his garments. The officers tied Marcus to the horses and marched him down the path.
“Well, Marcus. I see that little has changed, eh? Still going where we shouldn’t go? Being a little rebel,” the Colonel’s tone intensified, “…being a stone in my boot? Look around, young Marcus, you may not see this place ever again.”
Marcus glanced around, looking at all the distraught faces of the villagers. Zion stood down the path at the edge of the bonfire. From where he stood, Marcus could see Zion’s tear reflecting the lit fire. Marcus turned to the Colonel. The Colonel had a wicked smile stretched across his face. He looked down at Marcus, and Marcus spat onto his face. The Colonel wiped the spit from his face with a cloth, and then spat onto Marcus’ face. Then Marcus marched away from the village, with his blood and the Colonel’s spit dripping down his face.

Chapter 2: Hindsight
            Coming from my shallow shelter, I surveyed the land that once was a world. Timber was ash, steal bent like string, fire spread like air, and the dead walked around like people. The society that had consumed itself with family values, political ideologies, and religious dogma had been stripped from is complexities and was now as barren as the building infrastructure. There were no skyscrapers, no tall, elegant buildings that architects prided their lives work to construct. Now they were bare, if they even stood at all.
            Walking around my neighborhood I searched for you, any sign that you were near. I wish you weren’t. I wish you were far away from this place. Children were screaming for their mothers, or just wishing they would die and end their suffering. A man walked up to me and asked if I was his father. I did think he could see because his skin had melted over his eyes. The heat was excruciating, it melted skin like cheese in a frying pan. Most people didn’t have eyes, they had been incinerated. I had never felt more helpless. I wish I had a pistol, and allowed myself to shoot anyone in the head who simply wanted to die. But I don’t think there would be enough bullets.
            Most people went to the river to drink. Bodies floated downstream like driftwood after a hurricane. It was almost as dark as the sky. I wanted to keep them away from the water, I wanted to save them, all of them. But who was I to tell them, in their suffering, they cannot drink water. It seemed trivial now, but all I could think was how polluted that water was with disease before, and how poisoned it was now. I sat there for a while, and watched the bodies float passed me like luggage at a baggage claim. Trying to see their faces, hoping one of them was not you. But in truth, I don’t think I would have been able to recognize you. People who I was called my dearest friends were the zombies walking among us.
I saw our neighbor, Mr. Jefferson, digging through the rubble of his home. He had been in his shelter too. And like me, he was alone, just him an d his guilt. I walked over to him and he asked me if he had seen his daughter. I didn’t, but I had a good idea of where she was. The school sat alongside the river. Now half of it was in the river, along with the students and teachers. I could not blame him for being hysterical, but he could blame me for being calm, I lament it to this day. She had been in school, with all the kids, hiding under desks in a feeble attempt to prevent the flash from raping their purity. After a while Mr. Jefferson realized her fate and he grabbed me and started to cry on my shoulder. We were the only two who could embrace without losing a piece of ourselves. So we sat down, amidst the fire and barren infrastructure, watching the bodies pass by until we could claim our luggage. That’s when the planes came.

Monday, October 18, 2010

The Carnival

The lashing, 
Pierrot's whip,
no animals but animals crafted from shadows.
"For so long, For so...Long"
Something less than Pierrot.

The roads,
dust and concrete
Days tangled in the station wagon.
Lost in the vibrations, Lost...in the vibrations.
The dust Pierrot never forgot.
In the city,
bricks and s h   ar   ds of glass,
Leather bound volumes of history, water stained wallpapers.
These streets====haunted alone, haunted alone,
How the city of speakers vibrated.


Always a funeral,
white faces and polka dots,
jugglers plucked and tossed femurs and jaw bones from soil.
Lay Pierrot, Lay Pierrot,
Something less than Man. 



The reasoning behind the format of the poem is that I wanted each stanza to be distinct, both symbolically and physically, from one another. The italics, spacing, and bold are there for emphasis and visual support to the reader. Each stanza is taken from different parts of the Pierrot story, and I presented them chronologically as to give a narrative. *Note* I wrote a separate piece to this project, a story. But as I went along I felt that I liked the poem because when I read the story I felt like the wording is far better in a poem than a narrative. If you want to read the story let me know.  

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Rorschach Inkblot Rant.

The crow hops around on the food ridden ground. As the crow continues to peck at the crumbs a pair of black eyes settle upon him. The crow no longer moves and does not make any eye contact with the large eyes confining him. When the crow trys the fly away he cannot and is paralyzed to the spot where he stands. The overbearing eyes intimidate the crow, and he regurgitates the newly ingested crumbs.
 The black turtle sees the crow and makes his way over to him. He looks at the crow, and the crow looks back, using his eyes to plea for help. But the turtle just looks that the crow with confusion and continues on his way. The crow wants to call for help but is fearful of what the eyes may do to him.
 A deer sees the crow and begins to make his way over to him. The deer has never been able to get close to a crow before. The deer walks around the crow for a moment and sniffs him. The crow wants to jump up onto the deer's back but he is afraid of what the eyes may do. So the crow just sits there. The deer is confused by the situation and walks away from the crow. The crow wants to get up and flap its wings to get the deers attention, but he is afraid of what the eyes may do.
   A hedgehog sees the crow standing alone not moving and wants to see what is going on. The hedgehog burroughs over to the crow and pops up and begins to examine the crow. The crow stands still as the hedgehog looks around to see if there is any immediate danger. The hedgehog gives the crow a dirty look, and then burroughs away from the crow. The crow wants to dig away with the hedgehog, but he is afraid of what the eyes may do.
   Soon the crow has been standing in the same spot for two whole days and has become tired. He wants to sleep. He thinks to himself if he conjures up enough strength to confront the eyes, then maybe he would surprise them.The crow makes the decision that he's going to fly straight at the eyes and gouge them to make a point before making his escape. He sucks in some air, puffs out his chest, and flies straight at the eyes as fast as he can with his talons ready to gouge. The eyes are not far away and he is fearful he does not have enough speed, but the eyes are already upon him. As soon as he hits the eyes the crow hits a transparent wall and falls to the ground, unhurt physically. Then the turtle, the deer, and the hedgehog all begin to laugh at the crow, and he flies away, smirking about his own idiocy.

Standing on 1/8th of an Inch

  The sheen of a sharpened skate blade reflects the sunlight onto the wall next to my dust covered nightstand. Before he left, my father told me that I learned to skate before I learned to walk. I'll take his word for it, but I can never remember learning either. I suppose retrospectively gliding across the ice was not unique, but I felt like a lone Shakespeare actor dancing eloquently after the other players have gone.  When I was a young boy I used to come home from school in the dead of winter and toss my bag carelessly into the snow before I laced my skates and soared around the ice. I can still hear my skates etching through the ice, carving a piece of modern art that only the birds could see. Temperature was never a factor and neither was snow. Snow only meant how much time I had to wait before I could skate, temperature only obstructed me from removing my sweat soaked t-shirt.
  Skating and hockey are two separate entities that only mingle by their mere surface. Skating is elegant, hockey is barbaric. When traveling faster than any land ridden mortal, adding a flying disc that can exceed any ball may seem ridiculous to some, stupid to others. I was not the elegant dancer of the pond when I played with ten other dancers. We devolved into competing animals battling for town reputation like cavemen for women. For many the taste of blood meant jeopardy, but for hockey players the taste meant you were doing something right, you were playing. The atmosphere of the hockey rink is intoxicating: the noise from the overzealous parents jockeying for their children's success like betters at the Kentucky Derby; the glow of the red light when the puck crosses the goal line and the jeers and screams of joy that follow; and the anguish of defeat as we came off the ice, only to walk like the mortals that came to watch us compete.
   Those years are gone now and I no longer battle in the Colosseum of ice. The glory of victory now comes in academic success but the praise is short lived and unfulfilled. The taste of blood is typically subsequent of accidents and dentist trips. My body aches from years of torn ligaments, ripped cartilage, and broken bones. In the early days of my youth I yearned for that next goal, the next play, the next shift, the next chance to stand on 1/8th of an inch. But now I sit here and reminisce of the days that I was the arctic gladiator. Starring at my skates, waiting for cold, so I can once again stand on 1/8th of an inch and dance across the ice as the players leave the stage.

Monday, October 11, 2010

The Prison Cell.

  The large iron bars locked behind me as I decorated my new home for the next ten years. The concrete walls had been etched with tally marks from the despicable felons before me. The rust on the window bars resembled the last moment of a New England summer sunset. Fittingly, this was my summer sunset. In the corner of the room was my cellmate. He was a large dark skinned man. His face scowled with hatred and contempt for the world around him. His body was riddled with scars. The scars on his back were thick and raised. Their red hue made me think they were recent. Turns out they were.
   "What ya in for?" He asked right away.
   "I'm just in to do my time." I said. And then I sat down on the bench across the room from him. Our knees were almost touching.
   "How much time you get?" He asked again.
   "Ten years." I replied.
   " Well goddam you musta done somethin' white boy. What was it you done?"
   "I killed a man" I lied.
   "You didn't kill nobody. Do you think I'm dumb or somethin'? Just 'cause I'm not articulate doesn't mean I was born yesterday. You don't get just 10 years for murder. Come on now, we're gonna be livin' together for a long time, what'd you do?"
  "Fine, fine, goddammit you're pushy. I robbed a bank and got caught. And I fled before my court date. They caught me in Chicago. So there, that's my story. What's yours?"
  He looked down at his feet for a moment. He put his hands out and began to look at them as if he were looking at a photograph. I could tell they were calloused like stones. His voice trembled, " What they tell me I was out on a boat in the ocean, I was a fisherman you see. And they arrested me for fishin' where I wasn't suppose to be fishin' I guess."
 I started laughing, "Haha, that's bullshit. Really, what'd you do."
   "I'm tellin' you the truth", he yelled. He jumped out of his chair and his eyes filled with rage.
   "Okay, okay." Out of fear I changed the subject. "So how long have you been in here?" I asked.
   "Ever since I can remember, since a child" he said. "One day I asked a guard why I was in here, you see. And that's what he told me, that's what I did. When I asked him when I could go, he told me he didn't know. Probably never. See, every time my probation comes up, or I get enough money to get outta here, they say I've been bad and need to work off my bad deeds. But I don't remember if I did anything wrong, see. I'm thinkin' the warden just wants me to keep workin' here 'til I'm dead."
   "One day you'll be gone. I'll be sure of it. You just need to start planning a way." I reassured him. "But now I'm tired, what do they got to read in this dump?"
   He sat down again, "Read? read? They don't let you read anything in here? Are you kiddin'?"
   "What? Why not?"
   "They don't want us gettin' any ideas, you see. Of escape" he said.
 I got up off the bench and looked passed the rusted iron bars at the scenery around me. The overgrown crops go on for miles and miles. The rolling hills are never ending. The iron shackles around the prisoner's ankles in the courtyard send shivers down my spine. I can see the fat warden in his penthouse next to the sniper tower laughing with his guards. God I wish his glutinous fat body was dragged through the streets like mine was. Near the entrance the dried blood from the prisoners who refused to work that day turns black in the fading daylight. And here I am in this prison cell. Soon to lose the feeling of freedom like my cellmate. And become a mindless drone of work and labor for the gun toting guards. I soon feel myself coming short of breath and hyperventilation.
   "Woah, come on now, sit down before you go crazy boy" my cellmate said. He grabbed my arm gently and I fell to the floor. Suddenly my eyes became fascinated with one of the concrete blocks under the bunk. It was slightly smaller than the rest of the blocks and there was an edge of empty black around it. I poked it with my hand and it slid like a drawer. I pulled it open. It was a box. My cellmate got down on his knees with me and looked me in the eye. He gave me a nod. I opened it up and inside was the King James Bible.
   "We're saved!" I screamed. My cellmate started to cry.
   "What is it?" I asked.
   "I can't read" he said.
    I put my hand on his shoulder, "I'll teach you. For now, I'll read it to you." I opened up to Exodus and started reading to my cellmate, careful to make sure no guard saw me with a book.